Insensitivity

i can't believe how insensitive some people are when someone dies. I'm beginning to think that death does indeed break ties and shows a person's true colours. I first noticed it firsthand when my maternal grandparents passed away. Before they were in their graves, my mom's siblings were fighting for the million ringgit in the bank and my grandparents' assets. Now, my father's one sister and her family are fighting for my grandma's leftover funeral contributions or "bak gam" and my grandma's funeral is over yet! I took charge of holding the money. The funeral parlour gave us a box for the contributions. I came back this morning and i knew someone had tried to open the box. My grandma's furniture has been sold and can you imagine wat ppl will think when they go over to my grandma's place after the funeral? And the fabrications they wove abt how sickly my grandma was at the hospital for the month she was there! They were hardly there! Little do they know my grandma was joking with us and complaining to us when she was there. She was very sick but she wasn't sick all the time. Even at the funeral parlour, ... Sigh! ... My father is still weak so he can't come all the time. But the rest of us are here from morning till night. But these ppl ... They are very clever. They come in the morning and disappear after lunch. Then come for a while after dinner. My cousin come at night. All eyeing the contribution box. Sigh! I'm very angry at these ppl! When the doc said grandma had only a few hours left on sunday night, my aunt actually called me and told us we didn't have to go to the hospital immediately, that we should go later since she still had a few hours cos they would only go later. I told her to take her time but we were going there immediately. My aunt even told my mom that her husband told her to just wait at home for the death call! My poor grandma! To be honest, i'm a bit glad she's passed on because she doesn't need to endure these ppl anymore!

My Grandma

My grandma passed away on tuesday. My mom and i were the last ones, apart from the amah, to see her. It was really wierd that afternoon. My mom told me to go home from the office, but on the way home, before i knew it, i was on the road to the hospital. I couldn't get on the other lane so i went to the hospital hoping my mom would still be visiting my grandma. I ran into my mom at the lifts. My mom was very shocked to see me. Then we went up again to see my grandma. My grandma was already in a coma by then cos the night before the doc said she wouldn't last the night. Her breathing was very shallow and i felt for her pulse but it was weak. I asked my grandma not to scare me and she took a breath. Believe it or not. We stayed for a bit, then we went home just after 4. I took a short nap when we got home. By then, it was after 4.30. Abt half hour or so later, i woke up suddenly cos i heard a sound by my ear. I sat up confused and scared but my sister was asleep. I tried to nap again but couldn't. So i got up and watched tv for a while. Then i thought i heard the phone. My brother called my mom and told her grandma had passed away. I didn't realise it until on the way to the funeral parlour. It was really wierd.

Madness!!!

I'm so stressed by everything that has been happening at home... lol... to the point of picking fights with total strangers because of the way they drive... all I can say about this is that if i ever find them again, I'm going to trash their car!!!!

Grandma is still in the hospital. When she gets bad, she's very bad. She almost died a couple of times. but for some reason, these few days, she's been fantastic. She's aware of people around her and recognises people. She even been complaining about the maid who's looking after her and about how bland the food is. And she has been asking for certain food as well. I do hope this will last. The last few days, she was coma-like. She'd sleep and not wake up. She'd stop breathing. She hasn't eaten for weeks. And when she's awake, she's fidgety and couldn't recognise people. She also had lockjaw for 2 days. I reall hope she'll stay well for at least another couple of years or so.

My family and I are all so stressed out that the atmosphere at home was at times totally unbearable. It was awful staying at home and going to see my grandma in that state was heartbreaking.

I really hope things will start turning better now.