Homesick...

For some reason...I have been feeling homesick lately...night after night I dream of at least one of my family...I wonder why...it could be because I have been sick again lately... or it could be because as a family, we have grown so much closer since May. That made it harder to be away now...or it could just be because I'm sick and I want my mummy and my niece!!! sighhhh!!! I wish I can stop being sick here. Things used to be simpler with this stupid disability! ah well,...at least I'm here...

well, anyways, I find that when I am sick, I crave for Chinese food...and since we can't go out and eat everyday cos it's expensive, it's a good thing I can cook. I made Ginger Onion Beef...I don't even like beef to be honest.... and fried rice. I hate fried rice here... I need to practise cooking fish though... I don't like fish, right... so it's a bit more difficult for me to cook that properly... I'm great at deep frying fish but other ways ...50-50...


and you can probably tell from my blog lately that I am bored as hell!!! It's either internet, play computer games, read, draw, knit, crochet or watch tv everyday. People think that not working and doing whatever you want is fun...I can tell you that it is not as fun as you think it is... I went through this last year and I think I have already done almost everything I can do..and it's only been 2 months now and already, I'm dying to do something... of cos it will help if I am the type who can do the same thing for long...unfortunately, I'm not and I can't...

A friend commented the other day, when I complained that I am bored, that I am very lucky I have nothing to worry about now except enjoy myself and my days without having to work. I can do whatever I like. Well, it's not true. I'm not the type who can go through my days without a purpose. Nothing to worry about??? Ya right!!! I have loans and bills to pay for! And with no job... I am forced to depend on Rick for money. You think I'm lucky??? Yes, I am because Rick can afford to give me some money. But my pride if a bit too big for me to feel fortunate...

But then I chose this life and I don't regret it... I'm complaining...yes, I am... but hey! I have nothing else to do, have I???

Anime

when a person is bored, it's amazing what they can come up with... what do you think? I know the colours are not right and the proportions are out a bit, but close enough, yes?

My Nails

Now that I'm finally recovering from my bout of sickness,...I'm bored again.. Been really moody lately too...and since I bought a set of nail things, thought maybe it's a good idea to do something about my nails...hehhe I forgot it'll stink up the house..poor Rick... hehehe... this is all I managed while watching Strictly Come Dancing...hehhe

Things to Do when You are Bored...

Rick was away for 5 days this week so I was really bored at home... you can only blog and update facebook and reply emails for a couple of hours... I was bored..so what do you do when you are bored???

TAKE PHOTOS!!! heheh I love these...



and I have taken up a new hobby...I'm learning how to draw... what do you think? this is my first attempt....

Summer Holiday 08 - Langkawi

Hehe.. Holiday this year was in Langkawi because Phi Phi was too expensive and Rick had to fly to KK first. So the trip started with two overweight luggage...hehe...the flight was horrible! sigh! Rick said it's because of the small plane...hmmm... On the way to the resort...hehe... it was like going thru a very big kampung with lots of resorts scattered all over! I thought Langkawi was like a mini city!!!

So we got to the resort, the first thing that greets you is a wood carving of many fish swimming! Fantastic work! you have to see it to understand what I mean. The receptionist was so courteous! And Rick wanted to fight with the porter to carry the bags to our chalet...sigh! Lucky we needed the porter to show us to our room...

The room is a bit run down to be honest but everything else was good cos the resort was very eco-friendly, like they plant lots of fruit trees everywhere and they have an adopt-a-tree programme. The beach was fantastic! Not crowded, lovely long stretch...we walk from end to end every morning and evening. It's really really romantic while burning calories!!! hehe...and the sunset is gorgeous!

Oh and Rick even donated blood cos there was a Blood Donation drive for the Staff but he went and I couldn't because I replaced the blood for my grandmother. oh well,...and he got a free dessert for his effort from the resort!!!

We walked to Pantai Cenang, the shopping part and bought myself a red bikini...hehe...We rented a car cos he couldn't ride a motorbike on his driver's license. We drove to Makam Mahsuri. Finally, i know what the legend is. Then we went to Black Sand Beach which was a disappointment because only a small part of the beach had black sand which was actually granite silt. We also went to Kuah Parade(I think) and got some photos developed and bought a pair of sunglasses for RM 14 on discount. Rick was very impressed. My favourite place was the beach at Tanjung Rhu. It was beeaaauuutttiiiful! White sand, calm blue waters, islands dotting the horizon, very few people... I think because this was the expensive part of the island. Another favourite was Underwater World. Fantastic collection of fish, penguins, birds and a few snakes and the world's smallest monkey(can't remember what they are called) but the place was a bit small for the animals and the 3D show was a disappointment. I'm not even sure what the point of it was and the show was a bit outdated I feel. Anyways, my favourite was the sea dragon, the most beautiful sea creature I hv ever seen!

Best part was on the night of the Beijing Olympic Games Closing Ceremony. They had a buffet dinner and they seated us right behind the projector in front of the outdoor screen! hehe...but we had a misunderstanding after dinner and for the first time, he was so angry with me that I was scared of him and I didn't know why he was angry. But we made up after that so everything was fine again.

One whole week on a beautiful beach with a gorgeous man, beautiful sunsets, lots of sunshine,... sun, sea, sky and man...what else can a girl ask for???

Manukan Picnic

Finally after 2 weeks of holidaying and getting used to my new routine, I have now uploaded some pics taken on the picnic to Manukan Island. It was a beautiful day if I remembered correctly,... a bit too sunny with a shower on the boat back to kk... Everyone arrived on time, in fact, we had to wait for the boat to take us there. Being me, I hate boat rides. Rick was there. My friends were there. It was a good start. You can see so many fish there. You can see the fish very clearly because the water was so very clear! The beach was fantastic. Long white sandy beach and we found a corner all to ourselves. The table was covered with food! and drinks... hehehe... it was so full, the table top couldn't be seen at all. Martin and Rick were boring mat sallehs! hehe.. Martin only had his tuna sandwiches and Rick had his 'shau nyuk' and 'char shau'. the rest of us had egg and another type of sandwiches(can't remember what), fried chicken wings, 2 types of fried sausages, shau nyuk and char shau, keropok, apples, and can' remember what else. I had the whole bottle of Fanta Fruitade which I refused to share more than half a cup with Niv, Vun, and Keona. hehe... The baby protection was hilarious to the point of being ridiculous(bless them!) and Alexia was gorgeous(ah! the joy of youth!) Baby going tada! when she made a 'sandcastle'(so absolutely adorable!) the food( courtesy of the moms!) my Fanta(thanx to Vun)... fantastic! Will be a long time before we go on another picnic like that together again I think!

My New Necklace!!!

Isn't this just the most gorgeous necklace you have ever seen? In case you can't see it clearly, it's a dragon...a chinese dragon curled around onxy 'pillar'. Rick bought this for me in Langkawi. We went into the jewellery shop. He knows I love jewellery. He saw it and called me. I fell in love with it at first sight!. I knew I had to get it but my brain was still functioning in Ringgit and it wasn't that cheap so I waited till the last day in Langakawi and then we went back there. I knew I had to get it so he bought it for me... hehhe... isn't it gorgeous???

Tribute to my Popo...

My Grandma is the bravest and sweetest woman I know after my mum. My grandma lived by herself because she didn't want to be a burden to other people and she loved her freedom. I can't say that I have been a very good granddaughter because i visited her only when I had time. But the one thing that nobody can take away from me is the fact that I loved her very very much and she loved me and her courage and independence make her one of my role models(my mum is my other roole model).

My grandma had always been around. She brought us up and I can't even list the number of times I fought with her or the trouble she had with me when I was little cos I wasn't exactly an angel. But my grandma never complained...even though she did joke about how no man would ever want me because of my temper. She had always wanted me to get married cos she always claimed that she would be deep in her grave by the time I got married. Sigh! I thought my grandma would live forever. I wanted her to be there for the tea ceremony when I do finally get married, but that is not to be.


It's been months now. But tears are falling while I am writing this. When I think about the time she fell and the time she was sick in the hospital, it still breaks my heart. I miss her. I miss her nagging me to get married and I miss her nagging that I don't visit or call her enough. I miss her nagging that I smoked too much. I couldn't write this before and I'm not even sure if I will finish writing this cos it is very hard to see when you are crying...anyways, I will finish this...

Everyone who has met my grandma agrees that she was a very nice and sweet woman. My ex-boyfriend thinks she's very cute. Rick thinks she was lovely. Everyone knows she was very independent even after she fell and hurt her leg. To me, she was a beautiful woman, both inside and outside. She always had a smile for everyone. She covered her mouth when she laughed and I think there's where I got it from. And she always had a jade bangle on, which I copied. (I keep having to correct my tenses...it's very hard to think of her in the past tense)

You know how you are supposed to think of all the good things when someone passes away? I wish I could do that... I have all the happy memories of my grandma...and I don't think it's fair that she died in the hospital instead of in her sleep. And to have suffered like that at the end is not fair at all. And I don't want to mention all the stupid things that had happened... ... But I suppose something good has come out of all this... She doesn't hurt anymore and doesn't have to be humiliated by having to be taken care of by others...and she can be with grandfather now. She had always dreamt of him all these years... ... ... I can't talk about this anymore...

I love my popo. I miss her smile. I miss her.

BBQ at home

Rick came over to KK for a week before we went to Langkawi for a week of sunshine. Coincidentally, dad wanted to have a BBQ for the family to get together and have a meal. So I invited Vun and Alexia to come join us. Here are some pics from the bbq.