Homesick...

For some reason...I have been feeling homesick lately...night after night I dream of at least one of my family...I wonder why...it could be because I have been sick again lately... or it could be because as a family, we have grown so much closer since May. That made it harder to be away now...or it could just be because I'm sick and I want my mummy and my niece!!! sighhhh!!! I wish I can stop being sick here. Things used to be simpler with this stupid disability! ah well,...at least I'm here...

well, anyways, I find that when I am sick, I crave for Chinese food...and since we can't go out and eat everyday cos it's expensive, it's a good thing I can cook. I made Ginger Onion Beef...I don't even like beef to be honest.... and fried rice. I hate fried rice here... I need to practise cooking fish though... I don't like fish, right... so it's a bit more difficult for me to cook that properly... I'm great at deep frying fish but other ways ...50-50...


and you can probably tell from my blog lately that I am bored as hell!!! It's either internet, play computer games, read, draw, knit, crochet or watch tv everyday. People think that not working and doing whatever you want is fun...I can tell you that it is not as fun as you think it is... I went through this last year and I think I have already done almost everything I can do..and it's only been 2 months now and already, I'm dying to do something... of cos it will help if I am the type who can do the same thing for long...unfortunately, I'm not and I can't...

A friend commented the other day, when I complained that I am bored, that I am very lucky I have nothing to worry about now except enjoy myself and my days without having to work. I can do whatever I like. Well, it's not true. I'm not the type who can go through my days without a purpose. Nothing to worry about??? Ya right!!! I have loans and bills to pay for! And with no job... I am forced to depend on Rick for money. You think I'm lucky??? Yes, I am because Rick can afford to give me some money. But my pride if a bit too big for me to feel fortunate...

But then I chose this life and I don't regret it... I'm complaining...yes, I am... but hey! I have nothing else to do, have I???

3 comments:

escape2 said...

eh siawfong wanna know whether the government is chasing after those who broke the contract...u have any idea??

Bea said...

well, one junior was asked to pay back...the rest no idea.. why?

Audrey and Martin Wiles said...

bea the domestic goddess.. cough cough.. ahem. hehe.. when you gonna cook for me?!?!?!?!?!?

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